Work was good, 4/5. Thank god for the encouragement, else I don't think I can survive today.

Sometimes I wonder if this is the right choice, but come to think of if, whether right or wrong, I've made the decision. Is there any point in thinking it's a wrong decision?

Be smarter Mel.
"Another transaction again? Pro." as quoted by anonymous.

Work was fine, bored like usual. Unexpected of such a Thursday though.

Am upset about sales though. Sighs.

Ended my second day of work.

Was really nervous the night before first day that I couldn't even sleep.

Work turned out to be fine. In fact, much better than I thought. Colleagues are friendly and environment is nice. Simply put, the company is nice to work in. Despite being in a small-scale company, I never regret my choice. After all, I still think I'll be able to learn more thing in small-scale company as they will not neglect you.

Enjoyable work time but still tired. I need more sleep :D

Baby, I'll learn to grow up. I promise.

Internship commences tomorrow and here I am, worried and keep wanting to cry. My mind is continuously worried about this and that, so much that I don't even know what I'm worried about. Simply, just EXTREMELY worried.

The feeling I'm having right now, somewhat similar to the time when baby was embarking on his internship. The difference is, this time, I'm the one.

Guess I really relied too much on baby. Having to see him after waking up and before going home seems like a norm now, but tomorrow will be another extremely different thing. I'm stepping into phase of my life. Such things will not happen anymore, never ...

Unsure of what things will turn out to be like. Unsure of what tomorrow will brings me. Unsure of everything that may happen the next minute.

I don't know how I should face things from now on. I admit the fact that I'm emotionally weak and unstable. I'm seriously lost and I can't even stop my tears ...

Five days to the start of internship.

Mixed feelings. Scared? Worried? Happy? Or Excited?

I don't know. But money is an issue now. MAIN ISSUE.

I'm running low on cash. NEED TO SAVE, MEL.

Sometimes I really regret enjoying cause enjoying equals to spending money.

):

8 more days to the start of internship. And my worries start kicking in.

Oh well. On another side, I'm left with less than 8 days to enjoy my break before entering work life. So that will be, Baking and swimming tomorrow and Sentosa cum picnic on Thursday. As for the rest, oh well ...

Fell down at Wisma today. Fucking suay and the fucking bitch didn't even warn people about the spill. And they took so long to even clean up the place. Seriously disappointed with the management.

Now my already sprained leg worsen and my hip is damn painful. Fucking unlucky.

And now I'm feeling FUCKING IRRITATED.

WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND MY WORDS?!

Done with my final examinations yesterday! Will be having 12 days of break before commencement of internship. Technically I've competed all my examinations, since university is never my cup of tea.

And since I'm left with this pathetic 12 days of break, I'm gonna enjoy like crazy. Go Go Mel!

Why are there always hurtful things before report submission/exams?

FOREVER.

I hate myself for being born, like seriously. I hate myself for not having the courage to leave this world when the desire was at it's peak. Now that my courage have drained out, I don't have the guts to do it anymore...

Here I am, fucking stress over exams and issues in life are not helping. I fucking need a break from everything, yet I'm not allowed to.

I don't mind being a loser.

I want to escape. Escape from this little world of mine...

Spent today at home again, just like Sunday. Was contemplating to head out today but decided not to as dear have to head over to his grandma's place. I got to rest on my part anyway :>

Really envy those couples who get to spend all kinds of festive season together, be it Christmas or National Day. Even if it's just going to the mall for window shopping, it just seems so great.

I have this secret in me. A confession that I don't even dare to tell dear.

Ever since the incident on this year's Good Friday/19th Birthday, I've never dare to head out on a public holiday. I can't come out with a reason as to why this happens, I just have this fear in me. Really.

Woah! Close to one month of not blogging.

Life's been busy, especially with the ongoing submissions and presentations. That's good, cause the torturous semester is coming to an end. Yet, I'm worried for the next big thing in my life, internship.

I don't consider myself doing badly in Ticketing, currently. However the worries still beats in. I don't know how well I can perform in the future. I don't know what will happen in the future. I'm really really afraid...

Cooked dinner for hubby for the past week - Tue to Thurs, as his parents was away from SGP.

Day 1: Ee Mee Soup + Pan fried Rosti + Shrimp Wanton Soup

Day 2: Ee Mee Soup + Pan fried Rosti + Shrimp Wanton Soup (Again, but different type of soup base)

Day 3: Rice + Pan fried Egg Tofu + Black Pepper Cheese Sausage + Cabbage and Pork Stew

Day 4: Homemade Kway Teow Laksa + Pan fried Rosti

Somewhat instant and not the kind where you cook from scratch. But considered as an improvement. At the very least I didn't let hubby eat out or maggie for the whole week ^^ Hopefully he enjoyed thought.

Probably it's time I learn more dishes to cook before hubby get sick of my cooking. Oh wells~

Shall end the month of June with a post here ^^

Am updating my music library on my phone. So yup, I'm currently free :>

This week is really bad. Feet got somewhat infection, so it's itchy and stuff since last Friday. Been to doctor twice; Monday and Wednesday. And now it finally subside. Not that itchy anymore and red dots are disappearing.

Hubby has been so nice to me. Too nice till I sometimes think if I'm the one hindering you...

But whatever it is, I really thank god for letting us meet. For letting us get together without much hurdles. We may quarrel, we may argue. But no matter what happens, I love you ♥

Shall take a break from doing work.

In about an hour's time, it will be the 22nd again!

In advance, Happy 19th dear!

Days are covered with projects and more projects. Horrible.

Been on weibo for some time; chinese version of twitter. Other than following my idols, I've come to this user that post useful tips, so am here to share! (in chinese though) ♥

【完美女朋友标准】

1. 懂事

2. 融入你的生活圈

3. 她永远会把你与其他男生区别对待

4. 她也许会有很多异性朋友

5.她不抽烟不酗酒

6.天天嚷着喜欢帅哥

7.路痴

8.你发给她的短消息,她一条也舍不得删.

9.她需要你的肩膀

10.她不会总要求你先让步

11.她发给你的短信几乎不会有错别字

12.她很想陪着你

【瘦腹—十字蹬腿方法】

平躺于地面，头和肩部抬起，双手交叠抱头，注意手指不要交叉。右腿弯曲贴近胸部，左腿抬起与地面呈45度角，吸气的同时上身向右扭转，用左手肘触碰右膝盖，坚持数到3秒后用另一侧身体做同样动作，同样每边各5次

【K歌减肥：唱一首歌等于跑了一百米】

运用腹式呼吸法，充分利用腹部肌肉的收缩效果，促进新陈代谢，燃烧中性脂肪。若同时载歌载舞，唱完一首歌减掉的脂肪相当可观。张惠妹《三天三夜》，消耗19.3卡路里;迪克牛仔《忘记我还是忘记他》，消耗19.1卡;Celine Dion的《My Heart Will Go On》消耗13.5卡。

【让女性双腿变瘦的绝好食物】

肥胖是个让人头痛的问题，但是身材比例不均匀，比如下身肥胖。对于女性来讲，减肥主要是针对下半身，除了适度的锻炼，在饮食上稍加注意也可以取得不错的效果。

①紫菜 ②芝麻 ③猕猴桃 ④西芹 ⑤红豆 ⑥木瓜 ⑦西柚 ⑧西红柿 ⑨菠菜 ⑩西瓜 ?蛋 ?苹果 ?香蕉 ?魔芋。

【减肥不成功无非15个字】

爱零食，爱睡觉，爱上网，懒运动，缺恒心

【最完美女性标准体型】

①体重kg＝(身高cm×1.37－110)×0.45；

②以肚脐为界，上下身比例５比８；

③胸围为身高的一半；

④腰围较胸围小20cm；

⑤臀围较胸围大4cm；

⑦站立时头颈、躯干和脚的纵轴在同一垂直线上；

⑧肌肉富有弹性；肤色细腻、光泽、柔韧

【永远吃不成胖子的秘诀】

1、三餐定时定量，早上好，中午吃饱，晚上吃少，晚上为了减肥可以用水果餐或者粥代替。

2、用小的碗盘装食物，主要于心理作用有关。

3、先慢慢用汤匙一口一口喝碗汤(浓汤除外)。

4、肉和饭最后吃，而且要小口小口慢慢咀嚼后才吞下。

6、只吃瘦肉，不吃皮，吃肉丝炒菜，少吃猪排

#10个减肥运动#

1.最悠闲的减肥运动--散步

2.最热辣的减肥运动--力量训练

3.最有效的减肥运动--游泳

4.最cool的减肥运动--有氧搏击

5.最实惠的减肥运动--跳绳

6.最优雅的减肥运动--瑜伽

7最动感的减肥运动--骑单车

8最随意的减肥运动--慢跑

9最耗能的减肥运动--羽毛球

10最具美感的减肥运动--跳舞

五大瘦臀法宝

1、爬楼梯：紧实臀部。

2、推墙： 双腿并拢，双手撑在墙上，腿打直，臀部先向外伸，再朝墙靠

3、立姿蹲举：臀部往下蹲，使大腿与小腿成90度，静止维持后再站直

4、前后步蹲举：两脚成前后步，接着下蹲，前后脚的大腿及小腿都成90度

5、金鸡独立：一脚站直，另一脚在空中向后伸展。

【游泳瘦身TIPS】

游泳是夏天最有效的减肥方法，各种泳姿都有其针对的部位。

蝶式：腰部。蛙式：大腿。自由式：手臂、臀部、双腿。仰式：腹部。对于泳衣的选择，各种身材都不同，做完这个测试，快穿上最适合的泳衣去徜徉吧>>http://t.cn/aoIKlD

临睡前总是会饿，吃了会发胖，不吃胃又在咕咕叫，这真是一个非常纠结的问题。饿着肚子睡觉可不是好的习惯，你可以适当的吃一点流质的食物，比如脱脂牛奶、豆浆等，这些食物容易让人有饱腹感，而且热量较低。另外，在睡前听着柔和的音乐，做一些伸展运动或者按摩能够放松肌肉，对抑制食欲有一定的作用

【接吻减肥法】

1、亲吻能使皮肤更好，有美容效果；

2、人一生花在亲吻上的时间为两周；

3、亲吻时心跳会加速到每分100以上；

4、每天接吻三次可减肥；

5、经常接吻的人寿命长五年。

6、接吻是治疗打嗝不止的最有效方法；

7、接吻可防牙齿疾病。

8、西雅图有一所接吻学校，你想去吗？

【七种食物可增高】

①每天3杯牛奶，不喜欢牛奶就喝酸奶吃奶酪；

②每天吃一两个鸡蛋，不喜欢鸡蛋可多吃豆腐；

③黑大豆，可用花生替代；

④沙丁鱼，更易消化吸收；

⑤菠菜，不喜欢可用青椒替代；

⑥橘子，利于钙吸收；

⑦胡萝卜，可与苹果一起榨汁喝。

想长高的你记下了吗？

Taken from http://weibo.com/1864500772

That's all for now ^^

Is it time to let go? :/

I find myself so useless, like right now right this minute. I'm supposed to be concentrating on projects and reports, yet I'm here.

At this instance, I really hope I have the freedom to quit school right now and get a job. At another point, I just wish I could give everything a stop and just give a quit to life.

Yet, I don't have the ability to do either of both ...

At this point in time, I need somewhere to hide and just ignore the world ...