Why are there always hurtful things before report submission/exams?

FOREVER.

I hate myself for being born, like seriously. I hate myself for not having the courage to leave this world when the desire was at it's peak. Now that my courage have drained out, I don't have the guts to do it anymore...

Here I am, fucking stress over exams and issues in life are not helping. I fucking need a break from everything, yet I'm not allowed to.

I don't mind being a loser.

I want to escape. Escape from this little world of mine...