Why are there always hurtful things before report submission/exams?

FOREVER.

I hate myself for being born, like seriously. I hate myself for not having the courage to leave this world when the desire was at it's peak. Now that my courage have drained out, I don't have the guts to do it anymore...

Here I am, fucking stress over exams and issues in life are not helping. I fucking need a break from everything, yet I'm not allowed to.

I don't mind being a loser.

I want to escape. Escape from this little world of mine...

Spent today at home again, just like Sunday. Was contemplating to head out today but decided not to as dear have to head over to his grandma's place. I got to rest on my part anyway :>

Really envy those couples who get to spend all kinds of festive season together, be it Christmas or National Day. Even if it's just going to the mall for window shopping, it just seems so great.

I have this secret in me. A confession that I don't even dare to tell dear.

Ever since the incident on this year's Good Friday/19th Birthday, I've never dare to head out on a public holiday. I can't come out with a reason as to why this happens, I just have this fear in me. Really.

Woah! Close to one month of not blogging.

Life's been busy, especially with the ongoing submissions and presentations. That's good, cause the torturous semester is coming to an end. Yet, I'm worried for the next big thing in my life, internship.

I don't consider myself doing badly in Ticketing, currently. However the worries still beats in. I don't know how well I can perform in the future. I don't know what will happen in the future. I'm really really afraid...