Shall end the month of June with a post here ^^

Am updating my music library on my phone. So yup, I'm currently free :>

This week is really bad. Feet got somewhat infection, so it's itchy and stuff since last Friday. Been to doctor twice; Monday and Wednesday. And now it finally subside. Not that itchy anymore and red dots are disappearing.

Hubby has been so nice to me. Too nice till I sometimes think if I'm the one hindering you...

But whatever it is, I really thank god for letting us meet. For letting us get together without much hurdles. We may quarrel, we may argue. But no matter what happens, I love you ♥

Shall take a break from doing work.

In about an hour's time, it will be the 22nd again!

In advance, Happy 19th dear!

Days are covered with projects and more projects. Horrible.

Been on weibo for some time; chinese version of twitter. Other than following my idols, I've come to this user that post useful tips, so am here to share! (in chinese though) ♥

【完美女朋友标准】

1. 懂事

2. 融入你的生活圈

3. 她永远会把你与其他男生区别对待

4. 她也许会有很多异性朋友

5.她不抽烟不酗酒

6.天天嚷着喜欢帅哥

7.路痴

8.你发给她的短消息,她一条也舍不得删.

9.她需要你的肩膀

10.她不会总要求你先让步

11.她发给你的短信几乎不会有错别字

12.她很想陪着你

【瘦腹—十字蹬腿方法】

平躺于地面，头和肩部抬起，双手交叠抱头，注意手指不要交叉。右腿弯曲贴近胸部，左腿抬起与地面呈45度角，吸气的同时上身向右扭转，用左手肘触碰右膝盖，坚持数到3秒后用另一侧身体做同样动作，同样每边各5次

【K歌减肥：唱一首歌等于跑了一百米】

运用腹式呼吸法，充分利用腹部肌肉的收缩效果，促进新陈代谢，燃烧中性脂肪。若同时载歌载舞，唱完一首歌减掉的脂肪相当可观。张惠妹《三天三夜》，消耗19.3卡路里;迪克牛仔《忘记我还是忘记他》，消耗19.1卡;Celine Dion的《My Heart Will Go On》消耗13.5卡。

【让女性双腿变瘦的绝好食物】

肥胖是个让人头痛的问题，但是身材比例不均匀，比如下身肥胖。对于女性来讲，减肥主要是针对下半身，除了适度的锻炼，在饮食上稍加注意也可以取得不错的效果。

①紫菜 ②芝麻 ③猕猴桃 ④西芹 ⑤红豆 ⑥木瓜 ⑦西柚 ⑧西红柿 ⑨菠菜 ⑩西瓜 ?蛋 ?苹果 ?香蕉 ?魔芋。

【减肥不成功无非15个字】

爱零食，爱睡觉，爱上网，懒运动，缺恒心

【最完美女性标准体型】

①体重kg＝(身高cm×1.37－110)×0.45；

②以肚脐为界，上下身比例５比８；

③胸围为身高的一半；

④腰围较胸围小20cm；

⑤臀围较胸围大4cm；

⑦站立时头颈、躯干和脚的纵轴在同一垂直线上；

⑧肌肉富有弹性；肤色细腻、光泽、柔韧

【永远吃不成胖子的秘诀】

1、三餐定时定量，早上好，中午吃饱，晚上吃少，晚上为了减肥可以用水果餐或者粥代替。

2、用小的碗盘装食物，主要于心理作用有关。

3、先慢慢用汤匙一口一口喝碗汤(浓汤除外)。

4、肉和饭最后吃，而且要小口小口慢慢咀嚼后才吞下。

6、只吃瘦肉，不吃皮，吃肉丝炒菜，少吃猪排

#10个减肥运动#

1.最悠闲的减肥运动--散步

2.最热辣的减肥运动--力量训练

3.最有效的减肥运动--游泳

4.最cool的减肥运动--有氧搏击

5.最实惠的减肥运动--跳绳

6.最优雅的减肥运动--瑜伽

7最动感的减肥运动--骑单车

8最随意的减肥运动--慢跑

9最耗能的减肥运动--羽毛球

10最具美感的减肥运动--跳舞

五大瘦臀法宝

1、爬楼梯：紧实臀部。

2、推墙： 双腿并拢，双手撑在墙上，腿打直，臀部先向外伸，再朝墙靠

3、立姿蹲举：臀部往下蹲，使大腿与小腿成90度，静止维持后再站直

4、前后步蹲举：两脚成前后步，接着下蹲，前后脚的大腿及小腿都成90度

5、金鸡独立：一脚站直，另一脚在空中向后伸展。

【游泳瘦身TIPS】

游泳是夏天最有效的减肥方法，各种泳姿都有其针对的部位。

蝶式：腰部。蛙式：大腿。自由式：手臂、臀部、双腿。仰式：腹部。对于泳衣的选择，各种身材都不同，做完这个测试，快穿上最适合的泳衣去徜徉吧>>http://t.cn/aoIKlD

临睡前总是会饿，吃了会发胖，不吃胃又在咕咕叫，这真是一个非常纠结的问题。饿着肚子睡觉可不是好的习惯，你可以适当的吃一点流质的食物，比如脱脂牛奶、豆浆等，这些食物容易让人有饱腹感，而且热量较低。另外，在睡前听着柔和的音乐，做一些伸展运动或者按摩能够放松肌肉，对抑制食欲有一定的作用

【接吻减肥法】

1、亲吻能使皮肤更好，有美容效果；

2、人一生花在亲吻上的时间为两周；

3、亲吻时心跳会加速到每分100以上；

4、每天接吻三次可减肥；

5、经常接吻的人寿命长五年。

6、接吻是治疗打嗝不止的最有效方法；

7、接吻可防牙齿疾病。

8、西雅图有一所接吻学校，你想去吗？

【七种食物可增高】

①每天3杯牛奶，不喜欢牛奶就喝酸奶吃奶酪；

②每天吃一两个鸡蛋，不喜欢鸡蛋可多吃豆腐；

③黑大豆，可用花生替代；

④沙丁鱼，更易消化吸收；

⑤菠菜，不喜欢可用青椒替代；

⑥橘子，利于钙吸收；

⑦胡萝卜，可与苹果一起榨汁喝。

想长高的你记下了吗？

Taken from http://weibo.com/1864500772

That's all for now ^^

Is it time to let go? :/

I find myself so useless, like right now right this minute. I'm supposed to be concentrating on projects and reports, yet I'm here.

At this instance, I really hope I have the freedom to quit school right now and get a job. At another point, I just wish I could give everything a stop and just give a quit to life.

Yet, I don't have the ability to do either of both ...

At this point in time, I need somewhere to hide and just ignore the world ...

Away from this space for six days.

Project meeting on Tuesday. And my life have been revolving around work and work since then. *faints

Was being locked in the toilet on Thursday. Scary but funny experience.

Sick again. Cough and Flu. This time is bad, just like the previously. Voice changed and have been waking up due to coughs, also been having sleepless nights due to it. Am seriously unable to take it, but I really don't feel like spending money on doctor. What should I do?

Seriously, can I give myself a day of holiday? Just one day. Not to say I need a break, but rather, why does everyone seem to be enjoying their two-weeks break but I'm here always being trapped with work? And when I say everyone, it refers to people from my course, from my batch, doing the same modules as me.

Am I really slow or that much to do? Or does it have something to do with my time management?

What has happened to me? I really need to know...

Close to two weeks after I've left this space. Good and bad.

Good - Nothing much to vent out

Bad - Keeping everything inside me

Last week was MST week and I have none. So first week of "holiday" is down. Now leaving me with this upcoming week (which is tomorrow) and next week. Shall spend it fruitfully - is that the word to use?

Worked as Artist Liaison Officer for "Kids Performing" for Hope Concert 2011 at SOTA. Fun working with kids again! First time after I left the childcare that I was volunteering at during Sec 4. This time round was more in depth comparing to my previous experience.

Taking care of kids is really a challenging job. You have to ensure that they don't cry, changed into the right costume for the right performance, being in the right queue and sequence, eaten for mealtimes, sufficient toilet breaks, don't run about, etc etc etc. So technically, ALO is tougher than any other job as ALOs do not have break times.

Too much to list for what I did as an ALO over the two days. By the end of the first day, which was ONLY a rehearsal, I was tired and shag. However, excited for the next day - the real show.

Guess I'm really emotional. Because my group - Vocal Babies, was singing "Somewhere over the Rainbow", I nearly cried! It was so touching even during the morning rehearsal! Not forgetting my other group, Kiddy Pop. Their singing and dancing was awesome. Even watching from the small space from backstage could be so touching, I really wonder how it felt for the parents *wonders*

Despite only a short two-day, I had so much fun. So much fun that I don't bear to leave the kids and kids was kissing on my arm. They're just soooooooo sweet!

I'm still missing the kids! ^^

Few days away from this space and I'm flooded by the amount of work I have to do - Article Review, Projects, Online Tutorials, Three tests coming up this week etc. And that is not all, not forgetting my housework and all.

How did I even complete so much things in the past? :<

I know when work piles up, sort them out and do them one by one. I understand that it is my last semester and I should just hold on to it and strive forward. I knew at the back of my mind that I HAVE and MUST do it.

Yet, sometimes I just lose that momentum. I just lose that [hope] in me.

Mood and temper hasn't been good lately. I'm throwing too much temper on myself, and on dear. I'm sorry.

I need some time for myself, other than work. I need some personal space.

Three weeks of not swimming is making everything taking a toll on me. I want to release the stress in me and just dive underwater.

Let me get lost in my little world, will you? :/

Just done with my project part for Opts & Mgt for FB. It's getting late and guess I'm always getting emotional at these timing.

I'm someone who builds high walls around people - family, friends, everyone. So high that I make sure no one will be able to climb into my comfort zone. After being hurt and betrayed so many times, it's almost impossible for me to trust someone fully, it's also almost impossible for me to talk to someone with my heart fully open.

I don't tell people what i think deep down my heart, for being afraid of betrayal. I don't show my true emotions, for being afraid to find out that no one actually cares. Years after years, I used laughter to hide my tears. I used "fake courage" to hide my weakness. I forgot what my true feelings are.

It has been so long since I open my heart widely to talk to someone about what I think, what I feel. It has been so long since I feel that someone on Earth actually cares. It has been so long since someone knew I existed. It has been so long, since I knew, I'm never alone...

My very special friend - Steph. She encouraged me at the right time, being there to tell me what I should do, thinking in my shoes. I'm so glad I met her. Without her, I guess many times I would have given up.

Just like today. With so many things piling, I feel so stress. I don't know what I should do. I don't know which is the thing I should start on. Guess being in Year 3 makes me feel like giving up more. It makes me see things in negative tone, I don't see hope anymore...

Yet she was there at the right time, encouraging me.

Steph, I don't know when you'll be able to see this post, but I just choose to blog it out. I'm not someone who will talk to you with nice words. But I really thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart. Without you, I guess I've to stay up till late again tonight to complete my work. Without you, I guess I won't have the courage to continue my studies. Thank you <3

Not forgetting, my dear little boy, who is forever by my side, encouraging me. Thank you baby boy. I will hold on to it and not to give up. Thank you <3

Awesome day. Received a call from my third applied company, and I'm gonna go for two interviews on Monday (Y) YAY, hope someone takes me though. Let's hope I'll stop worrying and making myself nervous instead.

And today is my lucky day! I've got my half-priced white chocolate mocha from Starbucks! (Y) But the queue was extremely long, but its all worthwhile! I'm happy girl today :>

Went for my first interview today, kinda last minute. But never mind, it didn't dampen my mood! At the very least, I didn't have that much time to worry and make myself nervous (Y)

Think I didn't do badly I guess. Oh well, hope results will be satisfying :>

Another interview queued on Monday. Guess I can better prepare myself; but this also meant that I have more time to make myself nervous. Not good, not good.

Thank you baby for accompanying me throughout. And I'm really sorry for cancelling our plans last minute. I'm sorry, sorry.

Nothing major happened. Submitted ticketing worksheet, done with both resume and cover letter and guess I'm kind of ready to send it out. Now or tomorrow morning? Leaving me with individual restaurant review and article review, as well as uncompleted projects. Technically, I've started and am at certain part already but unsure of how should I continue. Oh well.

Am feeling so sick. Cough comes back off and on whenever it wants to and leave me whenever it gets tired of me and its really irritating me. Things worsen when my nose continues to dripdripdrip!

Now its headache and giddiness, and now usb cable is failing me. Sighs.

Picture from Google Image.

Slow progress today. Only done up resume, excluding career goals though. Drafting out my cover letter, ONLY.

Projects undone. Individual review undone. Article review undone.

Tell me how am I going to survive this semester? Like seriously. I really really hate myself. I want to fasten my progress, yet I don't have the heart to do it. As well as this ass is being crazy recently and my code is not yet sent to me.

Baluku is still painful ):

Thank god I have dear as my back up regardless of what happened. You're the greatest gift god gave me. I love you <3

Why am I so messed up this semester? Individual report undone, or rather, not started yet. Project research undone. Resume and Cover Letter uncompleted when the rest of the world are going all the way out to secure their internship position. Almost everyone around me completed/sent out their applications, yet all I did was nothing.

I'm feeling so messed up, so lousy.

Haven't been nice to baby recently. I'm sorry dear, I didn't mean to. I didn't wanted to blow up at you. I don't wish to do or say anything bad which may harm our relationship. I know I've been saying and doing nasty things as well as blowing and venting my anger on you, when things has nothing to do with you. I know I'm wrong and I know I shouldn't do that. I'm in no position to ask for forgiveness as well as your understanding. And I will definitely remember what has happened these few days and remember where I made mistake.

I hate time of the month. It makes me bersak and not think properly, blowing up at things and person who has got nothing to do with my anger. It makes me so lethargic about school and everything else. It makes me feel lousy as a girlfriend, daughter, sister, friend, project mate and a human.

I feel like crying. Yet I don't have the courage to.

I want to shout out loud. Like really loud.

I've never hated myself as well as my life so much as compared to now.